A little while after having become single for the first time in a long time, I was chatting with an old roommate about the dating scene.
I realized I had never really gone on an adult date before. But, I really wasn't ready to be in another relationship so soon after ending an 8 and a 1/2 year one.
Somehow, we started talking about finding online dates, but we hadn't heard of any ones that didn't focus on finding a relationship. So, we both started looking at ads on Craigslist.
Some of them were hilarious, and most of them were spammers. Overwhelmingly, it seemed like there were more men using Craigslist as a venue to find relationships or just a friend with benefits/fuck buddy.
That's when I realized, Hmm...maybe I just need a fuck buddy.
Questions raced through my mind.
What does that mean? Can I have sex without attachment? Without emotions or feeling love? Is it dangerous? What about STI's? Would it make me a slut?
What do I want from having sex with strangers?
I knew that I wanted to feel wanted. I wanted to be someone's wet dream. I wanted to be someone's dream girl. I wanted to be someone's heart-breaker.
So, I decided to try it out. Post something, and see what kind of responses I get. Of course, I would ask for a picture and approve them that way.
I decided that I was desperate enough to see what kind of responses I would get if I used the Sugar Daddy route. I was honest about not being skinny, but I was good, giving, and game.
Within minutes, I was getting tons of responses. Too many responses to handle. It was overwhelming, honestly.
I sent out tons of pictures of myself to some guys who never responded, though I'm sure I was their object of masturbatory concentration. There were some guys I turned away because they were too old for my 24 year old tastes or too young to know what they were doing with their parts or mine.
But, seeing those emails filter in was a high, in and of itself. It was thrilling. I felt like I had regained some control over who I let in, literally and figuratively. I felt attractive, even though I was just someone to screw.
After several meetings with guys from Craigslist (which I will detail in later posts), I graduated to Adult Friend Finder where I was better able to filter out guys who I wasn't attracted to.
Lesson Learned: Craigslist is mainly for immediate gratification. Most guys will just use your picture to jack off to. These days, Craigslist is an easy target for more risky activities. It's worth it to go for a more exclusive website.
I realized I had never really gone on an adult date before. But, I really wasn't ready to be in another relationship so soon after ending an 8 and a 1/2 year one.
Somehow, we started talking about finding online dates, but we hadn't heard of any ones that didn't focus on finding a relationship. So, we both started looking at ads on Craigslist.
Some of them were hilarious, and most of them were spammers. Overwhelmingly, it seemed like there were more men using Craigslist as a venue to find relationships or just a friend with benefits/fuck buddy.
That's when I realized, Hmm...maybe I just need a fuck buddy.
Questions raced through my mind.
What does that mean? Can I have sex without attachment? Without emotions or feeling love? Is it dangerous? What about STI's? Would it make me a slut?
What do I want from having sex with strangers?
I knew that I wanted to feel wanted. I wanted to be someone's wet dream. I wanted to be someone's dream girl. I wanted to be someone's heart-breaker.
So, I decided to try it out. Post something, and see what kind of responses I get. Of course, I would ask for a picture and approve them that way.
I decided that I was desperate enough to see what kind of responses I would get if I used the Sugar Daddy route. I was honest about not being skinny, but I was good, giving, and game.
Within minutes, I was getting tons of responses. Too many responses to handle. It was overwhelming, honestly.
I sent out tons of pictures of myself to some guys who never responded, though I'm sure I was their object of masturbatory concentration. There were some guys I turned away because they were too old for my 24 year old tastes or too young to know what they were doing with their parts or mine.
But, seeing those emails filter in was a high, in and of itself. It was thrilling. I felt like I had regained some control over who I let in, literally and figuratively. I felt attractive, even though I was just someone to screw.
After several meetings with guys from Craigslist (which I will detail in later posts), I graduated to Adult Friend Finder where I was better able to filter out guys who I wasn't attracted to.
Lesson Learned: Craigslist is mainly for immediate gratification. Most guys will just use your picture to jack off to. These days, Craigslist is an easy target for more risky activities. It's worth it to go for a more exclusive website.
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